MRI’s and maudlin notions…

September 23, 2010

I had an MRI on my wrist on Monday and heard the results this afternoon.  Tear in the scapholunate ligament.  Apparently the ligaments in the wrist are named after the bones they connect, and this particular ligament joins the scaphoid and lunate bones (carpals) of my right wrist.

I’m trying not to panic.  I’m in school, and the last thing I need to hear is that I need surgery on my wrist to repair the tear.  I won’t know all the details until my follow up appointment on the 4th of October, yet my mind is already racing.  It will be hard not to google all the ways in which I should be concerned, and my most sincere hope is that I can stay centered throughout this process and *know* that my goal of getting through hair design school without any major hiccups will be feasible.

Did I mention I’m trying not to freak?

This is my precious right hand.  My intricately executed and beautifully designed right hand.  I don’t doubt that it has been seriously comprimised by two falls.  Ever watch those slow motion videos of people running on treadmills?  Notice how it seems impossible that their knees and ankles can take such impact?  Yeah.  I guess my wrist is pretty damn miraculous for being in one piece *at all* after several falls.

Good lord.  This is not what I need or want.  I’m feeling kind of sorry for myself (hence the title bit, ‘maudlin notions’), and I just don’t get it.  Like Lee said, perhaps there is nothing ‘to get’.  It just happened, and now it just needs to be fixed.

Fortunately for me, I’m way ahead for my quilt show in January, and I think and hope and pray that I can find a way to continue with school, sans interruption.  I just don’t know how that picture looks just yet, and waiting is not my strong suit.

Wish me luck… Wish me the courage not to expect the worst.  Let me be like the water and flow around the obstacle(s) that seem to be in my path.  Fluid and formless.  Adaptable.

Maybe that is the lesson…  if, indeed, there is one.  Acceptance and adaptability.  The “A” words…

Wish me luck…

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Rave Reviews…

July 8, 2010

I’m always a bit confounded by customer reviews.  Whether it’s a stereo, a vacuum cleaner, a hair product, or a hair styling school, there is usually such a range of extreme comments, that I find it difficult to see them as helpful whatsoever.

Perhaps Hugh McLeod is right?  “Ignore Everybody”.  I’ve mentioned his book before in these blogs, and I’m really starting to think he is right.  He says you are better off to just keep on keeping on and not take others’ opinions too much to heart, for they will distract and confuse you and blur your focus.

I read some reviews of the hair design school I’m thinking about attending, and one stated that it was a ‘non-professional environment’, yet she couldn’t spell “professional”, and appeared to be upset that the students all passed the state boards with high grades.

Another one said that they had to ‘work in the spa all the time cutting hair, and didn’t get more than 2 hours of class time a day’…  Hmmm.  Wouldn’t it be helpful to get as much hands on experience (literally!) as possible ?

And yet another review was positive and said that the ‘instructors went out of their way for the students’.

She gave it 5 stars.

I’m older than a lot of those girls (and some guys) who are students at this design school, and I have worked in a variety of jobs throughout my adult life.  Maybe the real difference for me will be that I know what I want, and I will get as much out of the experience as I can.  When I went back to school in my 30’s to get the fine arts major, I was in the studio *all* the time.  I loved it.  I was a fiend and I created a lot of work.  But, I was also older and focused.

My best bet appears to be ready to glean as much as possible from the experience, and keep an open mind as to how I might most effectively get what I need…

I’ll be sure to give my review in about 12 months…  🙂

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